[Bonus Track] This Is Me (Last Goodbye Remix) aka I Don’t Wanna Be Alone

I Don’t Wanna Be Alone – Chris Treborn Remix (of This Is Me versus Last Goodbye)

This is my testimony. I wrote this after I got baptized and moved from California to Oregon.
I borrowed the beat “Last Goodbye” from Tedashii’s album Blacklight. BUY IT HERE!

VIDEO:

 

LYRICS:
I used to be a son. I used to be a lover
I used to be just one & I was a brother
Then I left you all to pursue my own dreams
Throughout the success I’ve heard nothing but screams

And Even though I sing I’m still not heard
And even though I cry I’m still not assured
not sure if I’m human ‘cause I lack a lot
I like a lot of things but I’m back at thought

When I think of my parents I remember it all
They been there for me even when I did fall
And when I was in love and I was heart broken
They gave me a hug and they were soft spoken

I’m sorry I was joking I’m sorry I was playing
Didn’t want to be laying but I’m lying to be saying
That I don’t regret my actions ‘cause reactions do hurt
And though it’s in the mist I’ll reside in the dirt

“This is the end of my life the final chapter.
Sorry to my friends in the darkest of hours.
I’ve been paranoid, & I stayed clear of void.
I lived paranoid; I just want to share a point.

And if, I can’t, save, myself,
I got, to save, at, least one!
This, is me, unsel-fishly,
So LORD, let,
Your will, be done!”

Maybe with a poem. Maybe with a song
You will remember me when I’m gone
It seems like everyone left to do God’s mission
And it seems like I’m blind I can’t see the vision

You know I’m wishing I could stay on this earth
But I felt set aside ever since my birth
And I know it gets worse when you’re in hell
if you see me first I’ve got a story to tell

Why did I fail why did I chase tail
Why was I foolish why did I excel
I was driving too fast on life’s highway
Now I’m waving in the rearview because it’s high stakes

I deny fakes I can’t accept your diss
I can’t be like you so I raise up my fist. Yes
I rebel, I can’t conform to your religion
I say it’s too hot so I’m fleeing the kitchen

“This is the end of my life the final chapter.
Sorry to my friends in the darkest of hours.
I’ve been paranoid, & I stayed clear of void.
I lived paranoid; I just want to share a point.

And if, I can’t, save, myself,
I got, to save, at, least one!
This, is me, unsel-fishly,
So LORD, let,
Your will, be done!”

Can I still be a Christian if I’m not fishin’
Can I still be God’s son if I turn up missin’
So many questions with just one answer
When it comes me I guess I’m just a cancer

Never was a dancer never had class
Never good in school not a chance to pass
All I had was God a relationship with Jesus
I wish I was smart enough to make this thesis

Why we all need this bridge in our life
Something to carry on after pain and strife
No husband or wife just single as can be
I guess simplicity is just our destiny

No wealth for me no food for free
All sins un-forgiven no more greed or jealousy
No more ecstasy no more liquor or weed
‘Cause I take my life and give God my everything

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